Personal thoughts !

Don't you ever feel that sometimes, you just can't stop thinking? That's how i feel now. I just can't stop thinking about things that I shouldn't give a damn. Given lots of thoughts about lots of stuff lately. Sometimes, i just hate myself so much cause i over-think. Well, to my defence, I feel that lots of other people over-think too. Not only about love, work, study and most of all, life. Over-thinking is not really a good things. I means, by over-thinking, you're creating something that wasn't even there. And that sounds a lil stupid, yes? But can we really stop ourselves from over-thinking? Distraction is good. Go out with your friends, go shopping or even travel. So many things i wanted to do and yet, so little time :( 

Over-think does ruin you. Seriously. I'm the perfect example. But why people over-think some certain stuff? Fro example, relationship. People over-think cause they care a lot. That's quite obvious right? If not, I wouldn't even give a damn about it. But does over-thinking also equal to lack of trust & insecurity in relationship? Ya, in a certain way. But usually girls or guys in a relationship over-think, is because they're scared to lose you. Cause you're important to them. That's why over-thinking happens. 

I'm only 21 years old, but i did go through a lot of stuff. Oh well, life. Nowadays, whenever I start thinking about negative stuff, I'll just immediately replace them with positive thoughts!  Something like planning trips with my girlfriends makes me happy. Just by planning them, makes me excited. Hahaha. Yeah, I'm easy like that. But other than trips, I have even a bigger projects coming up. You see! That's what i mean by couldn't hide my excitement. So i need to think a lot. Not about negative stuff, but positive ones. And all these are keeping me busy. Like what's written in 'The Secret', by thinking positive thoughts, you're pulling positiveness into your life where all those good, great things will happen. 

So, off i am to discuss the project with my 2 partners! Hope able to carry it out by end of this year :) 
Some of these are my personal favourite quote/ sayings! Enjoy :)

"We spend too much time over-analyzing, over-thinking & over-reacting"

"Sometimes, we just expect too much"

"Stay strong, stay positive. We all struggle sometimes"

"Never let people get to you. They can only pull the trigger if you hand them the gun "

And lastly, the one i'm trying to practice in life

The key to life is by not giving a fuck .

Officially Legal :)

 My birthday falls on 29th July. Even so, I went back Penang a week earlier to celebrate my birthday. Just couldn't wait to celebrate it this year as it is the big 21 :) Thanks for all the wishes on facebook :) Even if i might not show it but i really appreciate them. 

The first birthday celebration was an unexpected one. It was on the day i came back Penang itself. I'm suppose to have dinner with Karen & Janice. Both my awesome high school mates but Karen cancelled last minute as she's not feeling well. So Janice ask me whether i would like to have dinner with another gang of friends and i say yes. We decided to go to 55 cafe which located at Love Lane. I was busy instavideo-ing and thus no picture of those foods! :( 

                                 
                                     Girls being girls. Selca with anything, anytime.Lol

 And then came the surprise! Haha. I thought we're celebration on Wednesday so i didn't think of anything other than a normal dinner night :) 

Joalin, Me & Janice :)

                              Including Jack ! It's like a J's member meeting night. Lol

On Saturday morning, damn early in the morning, I was waken up to this. Those who put up the tents just have to speak extra loud -_______-

                                                       

                                                                The 21st Birthday cake ! :)

                                        Selca with cousie sis ! Weeeee ~ Typical girl 

Group shot ! Everyone quite sober in this pic. And yes, that's my mum. The one wearing a white singlet standing at the front? Lol

     Everyone keep taking those eggs and knock it over my head and thus this face!  

                                  Another happy celebration with my family & friends !  

On my pre-birthday which was 28th July, i go out with one of my favourite bunch of friends. They supported me during my hard time and make me feel all better. Thanks guys, i really appreciate a lot. I'm grateful for all those things you guys have done for me and sorry for being emo all the time. Hahahahaha. We decided to go to Behind 50, another great cafe in Muntri Street. 

This is stupid. Literally stupid. Who did that? Thanks to Mr.Kieve Koh 

Thanks guys, for all the things you guys did for me. For not leaving me in my hardest time and supported me through it. Thanks a lot, really :) 

On my actual birthday, I went out with both of 12 years bestie. It has been our tradition, since we ( Me & Jmin) blinfold a.k.a kidnap Jun yi to her birthday last year. Lol. So yeah, I have totally no idea where we're heading to. Jun yi is the driver of the day and we're late. Like late late. She suppose to pick me up at 7.30, I think and she reach my house almost 8 o'clock. And off we go. 

To my surprise, they're such a great actress. Please just give them an Oscar Award. Jun Yi act as if she got lost and she doesn't know the way to the location and thus that's the reason why we took so long time. We reach Hard Rock Hotel around 9 o'clock. 

The band is fuck up awesome. Seriously, they rock! 5 out of the 7 in the band could sing damn well. Mark my word for it. Jun Yi & Jmin totally fall head over toes for them. Hahaha.  

        Jun Yi vegetarian burger. She has been a vegetarian  for half year, i think ! 

                        Jmin choice. This is awesome. I'm totally in love with these.  

Grilled salmon. I wanted to order Fish & Chip but Jmin say that i damn lame so i changed to these! These taste amazing too! 

                                         Selca of the days!  

Too pinkish ! But i like this photo so i'm gonna put it up! 

Another one with two bitches. Lol.

After dinner, Jun yi pay up the bill and ciao. Leaving me alone -.- And then when i go out to find her, she just ask me to stand there. Jmin ask me to go camwhore around Hard Rock Hotel so there we go!

Huge ass gigantic guitar ! :D

We look like ghost here. Haha. 

Jun yi plan to surprise me which was kinda fail cause i saw it. And i know it's not typical Jmin to ask me to go camwhore with her. I'm such a smartass. *evil laugh. But the surprise came out to be quite a surprise also cause it doesn't even cross my mind for a bit that they would do these for me.

Ta-dahhhh ! The heart shape light that was arrange by Jun Yi & the stuff there while Jmin trying to distract me.

                                                 Handmade card from both of them :)

Thanks for everything guys. I'm touched, for real. Those efforts that you guys put in for the surprises. I love you guys a lot lot lot. More than you guys could ever imagine. Like i said, 'Who needs a boyfriend to feel loved? You just need a bunch of awesome, caring friends'. Thanks for making me feel loved. Even though this year is a fucked up year for me, thanks for everything you guys did for me. 

Thanks for all the people that celebrate my birthday with me. A lot of people say that 21st birthday is important, cause you're officially an adult. In other words, you can go casino or clubs without borrowing other's IC and so yeah. Haha. I'm happy even though I'm single when i pass my 21st but at least i got so many awesome bunch of people with me. 

Everything gonna be fine. Just breathe, belief, hope & faith. 

Last but not at least, thanks for the text. Wasn't expecting it but i guess you still remember. It's hard to forget since your birthday just 2 days after mine. 

P/S: Sorry for the quality of the pictures! Most of them are taken using phone. Cheers ! 

The past one year.

So, I found back my blog. Read back the post and then deleted all of them. This is the first post of this blog. Haha. Why i deleted them i deleted all of the past post, you asked? Well, I read and found how naive i was, how happy i used to be and it sucks. Lots of things, lots of memories which i wouldn't bother to touch.

What happen in the past one year plus? I realized the last post of this post is one year plus ago. Little did i know, one year could change a lot of things. Well, for a start, I'm single. I've been single for the one year plus. This explains a part of why i stop blogging i guess. Been busy dealing with my life. Close friends of mine would know what happened, but don't ask. Just don't. Just a piece of advice, appreciate when you still have him with you. Don't try to appreciate after he has left. Cause that's plain stupid. Like seriously, damn stupid. There's no right or wrong in a relationship. I would just say it wasn't the right time for us.

Okay, next! I deferred a year of my law studies. Well, i couldn't cope well with all things happening in life and thus, a year deferred may not be a bad choice after all. Did i ever regret this? Of course i do. But what's done is done and there shouldn't be any regret of the choices you make in life. And ya, I'll be resuming my studies this September so not much worries about it.

I've gain damn a lot of weight. How much i gain? Almost 15 kg. Ya, you heard it right. 15 kg is a huge amount. How the hell i gain so much weight? Drinking and eating supper after that helps a lot. Especially you drink 6 days a week. Like most people, i turn into drinking to forget which was another stupid things to do. BUT, i did have higher tolerance against alcohol now. I don't know that's a good thing or a bad thing but i shall regard it as a good thing! :)

I miss being back in Penang more than ever now. I felt empty being in KL. Of course, i have bunch of friends in KL. It's just that, being with my Penang friends, it's more comfortable. In case my KL friends reading this, no offence! Lol. It's like you don't have to keep talking or try hard to find a topic to talk about. Even if we're just pressing our own phone, there's no sign of awkwardness. I miss my family. I miss my dog. I miss every single thing about Penang.

You would then ask, why not go back Penang then? Well, I've been going back Penang every week for July and now, i'm not allowed to go back. Exam coming soon so yeah. I'm forced to stay here in KL. Kl wasn't that bad, it's just that i'm homesick, i guess.

Most important question, why i start writing blog back? I guess the main reason is that i think i got too much stuff hidden inside my heart, too many thoughts. This blog gonna serve like a platform for me to release my thoughts. It always has been, no? The second reason is that, when i read back all my old post, it reminds me of things that I've forgotten and that make me realize that blog did serve like your own personal memory back up plan. It's quite impossible to remember every detail of life. It feels real good, reading back those post,realizing how much you've grown over the year. Time flies, and time wait for nobody.

Sorry for such a lengthy post but yeah, I'll update more from now on :) Thanks for reading all these! Lol
Cheer :)

P/s: I'm officially legal :) Weeeee! So you guys can guess what's my next post would be about!